I haven't forgot about you blog!

I haven't forgot about you blog!

I haven't forgotten about you my dearest bloggy! 

In the days since I last left you, I have been adjusting to working life. It started out with like a dream, with a corner office with LOTS of windows, not to bright, and a place where it was ok to laugh and adjust your desk to standing whenever the mood fancied you to do so. Then they moved my co-worker and I to a small meeting room with about 20 other contractors. I am still in the corner but I lack the windows and my desk in now a table about a foot wide and 3 feet in length, I still WAY to close to the monitors and the florescent lights are awful. I no longer have windows, I sit right under the air duct which is usually always cold. Worst of it all, all the people in the room prefer to have a constant quiet in the room, so I work in a stale quiet room and laughing is frowned upon.

I still love my job and my co-worker has now become my "partner in crime", she definitely has made that room tolerable for now and of course, we're looking for ways out of that room! I am very happy and thankful for landing this job and having one awesome co-worker. When the two of us are together in the room, we act like two kids in high school (in the good way). We giggle at the photos we correct, we make crass remarks via IM on topics we miss heard about. Now, a person in the room we and made a noise complaint to our manager. When our manger emailed us about it, I was kind of floored, aren't we all adults now? 

Now, to me the room feels like a morgue; it's cold like one, whenever I leave the room and come back I get awful looks, and it's so quiet. I definitely liked it better when I was permitted to laugh a little and I looked forward to coming. Don't get me wrong, I still look forward to this job and seeing my "partner in crime".

So, while adjusting to work, I ended up getting sick for a week and fully recovering in two weeks time.

I get off of work and I have been a zombie. I don't want to look at my computer or do anything accept sleep.

That needs to change! For one, I need to continue to learn After Effects, 3ds Max, and Japanese. I also need to work on having a workout regiment back in my schedule.  I haven't lost any significant weight while eating well and working out, but it does help with my sleep and my mood. Plus, I still really really really want to lose weight and have energy, I mean I sit all day... I need to do something!

I have been having problems with coping with life right now. I have been trying to figure out what I can do to fix this situation. I currently feel like I don't want to be an adult anymore. I feel caged in and kind of hopeless at times. I am trying so hard not to despair but owing so much money and not being able to have some freedoms. My heart is telling me there is something wonderful and great that will happen for me, but I seem to  keep losing my way from time to time. It is definitely hard to hear your heart when everyone around you is shouting for their claims. I also feel like my friends are on a whole different plain then I. I don't really get to see them much anymore, life just happens and our paths don't cross as often as I would like.

Today, while I was out and about. I thought about just running and hiding in the trees and meditating for a bit, Listening to the trees and wildlife. Sadly, I didn't do that today. When I got home in hopes of meditating of sorts, I find that I can't really connect here, although I live here and pay rent and what not, I am not feeling connected enough to just Zen out. Instead I feel lost and alone in this town home, trying to seek out other ways to occupy my mind. 

Yesterday my parents left. They were only here briefly, I feel I haven't really got the chance to spend real time with them. Sure I took them to places and what not but I didn't feel like we got enough time together. This upset me as they left for Colorado yesterday. I am however very thankful and happy that they came out to see me for that brief moment, just wish it was longer and filled with more laughter and joy.

I decided not to walk at my graduation. I am very proud of what I have done and so is my mister, but shelling out money for a gown, honor cords, and missing work just for a walk. I think just having a good dinner with my mister will make me feel just as accomplished.

I think I am done blabbing for now. Everything else is just pointless rantings like; I think I like my phone... It has a better camera on it then my Digital SLR and I found a dress with pockets!

Ahoy Light!

Ahoy Light!

Yesterday, I experienced some anxiety just before going to fill out orientation paper work for my new job. It hit me like a ton of bricks!! I never had to deal with anxiety before I met Rite Aid; true story! As I was working through my stress I realized; I don't want to disappoint this new job. Just like Pokemon, I want to be the very best! I also realized, this is my first 40 hour; Monday- Friday; most I have been paid yet job! I am used to being part-time or varied, doing retail, and being kicked around. Even when I worked in a portrait studio, it was some grueling hard work! In my history of retail; I have been, under paid, yelled at, had things thrown at me, been abandoned by co-workers, thrown to the wolves, taken advantage of, climbed on, worked on hands and knees, bent over backwards. The good side is; I have got to encounter and endure all walks of life, I have a better appreciation towards how to act towards people and how to be treated, I have a thicker skin, a few people have warmed my heart and made me appreciate more things. Finally, through years and years of retail to fall back on to, one day was just when I had enough and decided to get a degree. Now, I understand this all sounds so winded, but I am getting to the point! I had an attack because, I am totally done with retail and wish nothing more then to work at a job, doing something that has to deal with the visual arts. I have found that job, and from the sounds of it, she really liked me enough that she didn't need a second interview! I am a little afraid and excited to start my new career path, I just don't want to mess this up. Kind of like a "Don't pinch me, I am dreaming" thing. I am still a little in shock, once am physically there and working, I am sure I will start to feel a little more normal.

So, if you couldn't tell. I got a job with Expedia/Hotels.com as a Media Producer. I will be editing photos of hotels and such for their sites, along with batch filing amongst others photo needs. I will not be creative, I am just the person who does the work as needed. I am totally OK with that. Kind of like an assembly line for photos. When the job opened up last Wednesday, my recruiter called me ASAP and we went over my resume with a fine comb. My resume was sent out and within 3 hours, I got a call for an interview for the same day. The interview went well, she asked questions on what I used Photoshop for and if I used Bridge. The interview was done in 10 mins and over the phone, she also told me how much she liked my resume and how I have a lot of experience and sounded excited. After the call, I emailed my recruiter about how I thought the interview went. Ten mins later he called to tell me that the interview must have went well because they cancelled all the rest of the interviews and would like to offer me the position. I got goosebumps when I heard  the news! Now I am waiting on the background check...

I also have finally accomplished my AAS degree in Web and Video! Feels pretty good! I would like to get my BS or BA as well, but I would like a little assistance if it's available. LWTC was something else. I was a great experience and I graduate with honors! My only real qualm is that I didn't feel as challenged in certain classes. A few of my classes that encouraged free thinking like, my painting class and motion graphics class, I felt challenged to come up with ideas and apply them to what needed to be done. Most of my classes just felt like silly busy work. I know busy work is all part of school but I believe problem solving and exploring were more essential.
To celebrate, I might have to have a themed party! I wanted to wait until after I got a job because then I was more likely to enjoy it. I was thinking of having a kung-fu party, where we watch Bruce Lee films and eat Chinese food and have to kind of dress up! Or a mad scientist party! Hmmmm

I think that's all my brain wish to report for now. I think I am going to go do some yoga and window shopping.

March Inspirations

March Inspirations

I <3 Tea. I actually found this tea shop in February, but went back in March for more! Tea has definitely helped me get through this March! So Cheers!

I found some awesome cube art craft stuff! I am so glad my printer is upstairs or else I would be making these all day!

This video was made with NO budget, NO time, and up here in the Seattle area! This guys video is pretty damn awesome and it definitely inspires me to make more videos; once I get a Canon 5d or a 7d. 

I <3 space! I have been thinking and reflecting a lot on Space as of late. I can't help but think, every time I look up into the vast darkness of Space, I am awe struck. 

This is awesome shadow work.

And lastly! This guy! Danbo! I super <3 this thing! I want one just so we can make sweet sweet photography together! Sad... they are not cheep and it seems like you can only get him off of ebay.

http://www.cubeecraft.com/

February Inspire

February Inspire

I meant to do this last night while it was February, but today is a good day.
So without further ado, here are some things that inspired me in February.

An awesome park.


Awesome photo blog site, that makes me want to photo blog more.

I ran upon Chococat Cookies! And I also discovered their website where you can see all sorts of cool baking creations.


I want to fold this!


I have a watch fetish. (Sometimes) I enjoy really cool and different watches and I happened to find this gem, while looking for led watches.

And here is 2 really cool Animation schools in the far of land of Europe. One is in Denmark other is France.

It's that time again! Time to make a bloggie bloggy on my blog at blogger.

As of February 2nd I have been implementing more Feng Shui techniques in my home to increase my money flow. I figure right now, why not. I don't really have anything to lose. Some of the techniques, however, cost WAY to much money and I am unable to do them, but I have been able to do a few. So far I have been a little more positive on my outlook. I have been able to just focus on the now and do what I need to do now, for a more prosperous future. Small things to take note on. I did get an interview for a design job! I haven't heard anything back from the job, but the fact someone took time to give me an interview makes me feel like I am getting peoples attention! Slowly but surely. A few other things to note on, I actually got my last check from the yoga place. I was very unsure they would pay me or not, and I got a great surprise about my tax return. So little things are adding up and making me take more notice. So I am glad chi is flowing.

A dear friend of mine passed away on the 31st of January. Juan Francisco Marine. He was someone that even through-out the years and the months of no talking, he would check up to see how I was doing. He would check up on me from time to time, always making sure I was in good spirits, that the man in my life is doing right by me, and keep me updated about his life. I will remember the times I did spend with him while I was in CO. I would pick him up, we would go for a drive and just talk, watch some anime, he would give me a back massage (He was really good at these! One of the best!). Juan tried to IM me a while back. I was busy, but I always left his screen name up on my ipod messenger in hopes that I would catch him online at the right time...... Knowing he won't ever.. really chokes me up and gets me teary eyed. This little ritual had come to an end. The night I found out about his death, I looked at my ipod and lost it.
Juan died of pneumonia. He was my age. He was to way to young. A friend said he was in the hospital and was getting better and now think it might have been a blood clot in his lungs, that did him in.
Juan you are greatly missed and will not be forgotten.

I feel like I have been going non-stop as of late doing school stuff, looking for a job, trying to hang with people to help me feel like a human that has friends. I so want to be done with school like last month. I only have 6 weeks left, I am half way! Now I am totally ready to have a job now too!
I have to work on my project for portfolio class. I need to take a photo of a table in a kitchen or nook kin of area, with a bowl of cereal, cereal box and a figure dressed up in dark clothes for reference. My goal is to make a monster to put in place of the dark figure, eating breakfast in a real world scenario.
I really need to get cracking on this!

I have been inspired as of late by a friend in CO. She has been losing lots of weight! I feel so empowered by her. I have been eating better but I haven't really been exercising like I used to. Ever since I stop working at the yoga place, I just haven't found time or have been lazy. I have noticed that I haven't been sleeping well and not enough energy. So... after hearing about my friend success and wanting quality sleep like I have had, I went back to working out about 45mins to an hour. I do cardio for 30 mins then I act silly and dance or I lift weights or do some light yoga a teacher taught me, that would really help me out. Today, after feeding my friends cat. I had my gent drop me off in the town square so I can look for a job, and so I can have a nice walk home. Indeed it was a very nice walk home. I walked for about 70 mins today, so I am giving myself a slight break from the gym today. I am also logging my food and exercise. Why? You might ask. Well, I am not one to log or worry to much about what I eat, but this is a good way for me to remember if I ate enough or if I need to eat more! Also I am going to weigh myself weekly to see, the good, the bad, and the ok of my status. The weekly weight thing, was inspired by another friend of mine, but she hasn't posted in a while.... perhaps, after reading this I might inspire her again to continue her food blog journey and such!

Well that is all I have for now. Stay tunned! I feel I will have more very soon!

January Inspiration

January Inspiration

Starting this month of this New Year I would like to post once a month on all things that inspire me. I am going to try my hardest to keep this going through-out the year just so I can look back and reflect. Perhaps I could end up inspiring others.

Random Happiness

Random Happiness

I bought a ridiculous shirt and I am so excited! My friend brought this to my attention about a couple years ago but finally it went on reprint and I happened to snag the last shirt, I just hope that I didn't order to big. Hooray for Threadless!

Other news, some good friends of mine decided they did not want their television any more and happened to ask us if we wanted it. So now I have a flat much lighter TV. My gent is excited, I am excited at the fact that we don't wont have to move a heavy beast when we move again. So Salvation Army came and took my old TV away, it was bittersweet and relieving. I am trying my hardest to get rid of things I just don't need or haven't even touched in years. I want to simplify my life, now if I could only convince my gent. Anyways, I hooked up the TV and stereo, then discovered I have crazy channels I never knew of! I have the weather channel in 3 different formats, travel channel, and some kind of Chinese station! Yay! Now I have a radio or some way to have louder music! Oh how I missed listening to music while I am eating or while my gent is away.

My new way of eating is doing pretty good, I just need to find some more awesome yummy veggie recipes.
Speaking of eating I better go and masticate before I go to work and school.

One more side note. I have added a Audio section to my website and soon more photos! But I will blog more about that over there @ shotbyLiz.

Anxiety on the rise.

Anxiety on the rise.

For the last 3 months, I believe have been incredibly challenging for me. I also have not been as happy as I once had been. I get how life has ups and downs to endure and understanding and getting through is what it's all about. I feel very apologetic to my friends as of late. I am constantly apologizing for things I can't control or just even my moods. I know people don't want to be around someone who is just down on their luck or even hear about it. Two things happen to me during this time, I want to be around people so I feel better and I want to be alone so I don't effect or drag someone down.
I am down because of the necessary evil, that is money. I made some poor choices in my young adult life and now I feel as if things are pilling up. I really don't want to go into bankruptcy... I can't even afford someone to help me with that. It's truly amazing how having a job and steady income can help alleviate that, but in my case it will only help me just scrape by. I am afraid of a couple things right now and as hard as I been trying to take a stand to fix them, I feel frustrated and even more disconcerting then last week. I want to be able to sign this new lease with confidence that I am able to keep living in my place. I really REALLY don't want to work retail but right now it's looking more like I have to. Places like Rite Aid and JCPenney have ruined it for me. Perhaps if I didn't end up working for a big corporation I could handle it a little more or as my friend said, "Something a little more specialized". I think I could handle specialized kind of places like a book store or a flower store, because then even if I got paid just barely enough to exist then all my hard work won't be in vein to some where I strongly dislike, but rather a place that is pleasant and fun to work in such as the yoga studio.
I am kind of tired of working really hard and barely scraping by. Hopefully school will indeed help me out in getting out of this funk I have been stuck in for 3 years and get me on the track I have always strife for and that is financially sound and independent.

Getting Fresh

Getting Fresh

Hellllloooooo Amazon Fresh!
Me and my mister decided to try out Amazon Fresh for our grocery needs this week. Let me start out with a link to their site and tell you that they use Amazon's information but they are an independent grocer. What made us want to try this out is that we have been seeing trucks around for years. I thought it was going to be expensive but I would say that it is very comparable to Safeway, QFC, and Whole Foods. We always need to get groceries during the week and we usually wait until my Mister's weekend, by that time we don't really want to go do that because we want to relax or have fun, not shop for groceries. Another thing is, we tend to do frequent little shopping during the week, I believe that if we cut that back we will have a little more money in our pockets. My boss told me how she would recommend it for the produce because they seem to have good deal most of the time, so my Mister and I checked it out. Kind of leary of how all this was going to go down, we started to browse their items and discovered how it was kind of fun and convenient to just search online and add to your cart. What was also cool is you could choose the time you wanted them to come to your home. My Mister placed the order at 3am and we got our stuff at 7pm the same day. I guess if you order before 1pm you can get your order same day say like 3pm or 8. Well they arrived at 7:10, we quickly lunged towards the door when we heard the truck pull up. We were as excited at getting an awesome package in the mail. The driver was very courteous and told us his name was Darrel. He gave us fresh flowers as our gift for getting our first order with Amazon Fresh. We were very happy with the service and all the veggies looked good along with our eggs all in tact, I say we would definitely do this again. :)  We will still frequent Joe's as well. But this was definitely a very cool experience in having your groceries delivered to the door.

New Year

New Year

2010 has come and gone. The year was very mixed.... lack of funding made it bad, but finding great friend made it great. What will this year have in store for me? I am hoping a vast improvement from the last 4 years. You might ask "Why this year Liz?", "What makes this year more promising?". Well for one, I am on my last quarter of my Associates and I am pretty damn proud of myself! I would like to go for my BA but I lack the funding for now, but anyways, I think I am awesome and someone will finally heed my call! Perhaps I should get my tarot read.. I have been thinking about it a lot as of late. I need all the advice I can get! Second, I look forward to having my parents finally coming out to WA to see me. Some other things fall into play, such as, conventions coming up. Not so sure why I am so excited this year, unlike the past, but man I am ready to just go and be a geek as things are turning into spring. Spring is by far one of my favorite seasons up here (along with Autumn).
And thirdly, I have a part-time job to start the year off right. I get to do yoga whenever I am available to take advantage of the classes, so, hopefully I will have better health in 2011. Oh and finally! I tried to eat lucky food today. Usually I am not into that belief but why not give it a go and just see eh? ;)
So here is to hoping for a better chance of wealth and health!

Resolutions? Hmmm...
I would say, I want to read more and travel this year. I would like to read one book and month and just travel around and do some cool events, such as, cheesefest, teafest, and something with vikings. ;)
What about you dear reader? What is a resolution you have?